Hi Folks!
I've missed blogging. It's a way to write a diary, it's a way to share your mini victories, loss, confusion, and anything in between. So here's my story right now.
I'm a bartender, knitter, yarn dyer, and loving my life. It's really weird to think about. I loved going to college and learning, economics was truly an interesting subject to study. I thought I wanted that life after college of working and career life, but the more time I spent in the office job, the more I thought, "Is this it?" I went to school for 4 years, I studied my butt off (had a lot of fun with my friends too!), to wake up early every day, sit in rush hour traffic, find things to do, go to lunch, find things to do, sit in rush hour traffic, maybe hit up a ballet class if I was feeling down, knit, watch tv, read.
I was reading a book at my first job out of college. Revisit my What Makes You Smile post for the full story again.
Now today, I was sent a job posting by a great friend. She means well and it even made me get my computer out (who uses them anymore when our phones do so much?!), readjust my resume, and then I opened the apply page and froze. I thought to myself, do I want to work an office job again? I texted a few friends, had them remind me of my sadness in an office, searched blog posts, articles and quizzes. Then I remembered my moment. The moment I wanted to be known in the knitting world, to dye yarn, to knit whenever I wanted. I didn't apply to the job.
Sometimes I take my bartending job too seriously, but that's ok. It helps me pay the bills and that's why I have a job. What I need to remember is that I took this job to focus on my knitting. To soar in the field I want.
I may not have the "normal" career path, but I'm totally ok with that. I am happy that I can sleep in every day. That I can get the dishes done, vacuum and eat properly. I have a semi regular schedule, and I feel bad that my boyfriend goes to bed without me sometimes, but I feel so much happier not being drained in a closed in office. It seems so silly, but I'm happy.
With all my working, I've done Christmas real hard. I went to Monroeville, Shadyside, Strip District, Market Square, Settler's Ridge, all in one day. It was a lot of driving. I got a lot of gifts. I'm totally done shopping, all I have to do is knit. And I wanted to share the blog post first. I couldn't help but share with someone my realization once again.
Don't get down on yourself because you don't have a normal career path. Be happy being you, and I couldn't be happier being me.
<3 Carly
